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Wayne Lowrance    (2011-05-26)
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Thibault Eros & friends.
I am exhausted. At 81 years I cannot play chess to my standards. Recent events have drained me and I do not know what to do. I dearly love this site, it has been good to me, I met a lot of friends but I cannot any longer function at the level I expect of myself. Please forgive me. May I drop out of current WBCCC matches with Eros.
Thanks to all for being my friend

Thibault de Vassal    (2011-05-26 02:45:13)
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Hi Wayne,

Surely we all can understand what you feel at different levels, personal life is a great part of correspondence chess games, and sometimes we lose because of such factors (it happened to me as well, but you didn't need it to beat me :))... Such a situation is always really hard to accept, particularly after having fought during months/years like a lion just like you did here, but IMHO time will remind you (in days or months) that all this is definitely only a game after all.

Fortunately good games always remain... and bad ones are not so important. I learnt that.

Just do what you have to do.

All the best,

Wayne Lowrance    (2011-05-26 02:50:26)
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Thank you, this hurts,

Jimmy Huggins    (2011-05-26 06:54:28)
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Wayne friend, you are IMO one of the most respectable men I know. Playing thought all these Robin Round and Knockout events can take a toll on you. Especially at your age, it has probably been years since you really took any break form it. You may need time away to collect yourself. You will always be an a good friend to me and if down the road maybe months or many months down the line. I will be very happy to just play you in a fun game. I don't know what happen to you recently, but if you need someone to talk to. Don't haste to PM me. Get better my good friend. My thoughts and prayers will be with you.


Wayne Lowrance    (2011-05-26 17:32:15)
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Thank you Jimmy so much. Your prayers will be much appreciated. I decided I would share the full extent of my problem.
My body is ravaged with arthritis. Have had it for man years Its in lower back, right hip and knee...no cartilage, bone on bone. It has progressed in last year. I have to take Pain killer drugs (Vicodin). A Operation is not an option. Doctors told me year or more ago this day would come. The Vicodin helps relieve pain but only for 2-4 hours.My mind is affected from the drug, all in all I am exhausted with chess pressure, trying to play at a level I am accustomed too. Drugs or no drugs, I am still in pain, I am invalid now, cannot walk, sitting hurts my hip, bah...on and on.
I was not gonna share the details but I wanted it known complete reason for my leaving CC world of chess that I love so much.

Garvin Gray    (2011-05-26 20:17:18)
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I am so sorry to hear this. I do hope to see you back soon if possible. Please do keep in touch.



Thibault de Vassal    (2011-05-26 21:40:21)
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Take care Wayne........ I only hope to read better news from you very soon.

Eros Riccio    (2011-05-28 08:06:21)
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Wayne... don't worry about the match against me, it's not important, and it can be resumed later... now only focus on playing the most important match, which can't be delayed, with life. Fight Wayne, and I am sure you will be the winner.


Kamesh Nookala    (2011-05-30 14:39:20)
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Wayne...Have faith and take rest, rest and rest.

I had to be finally admitted into an hospital 6 days back when Doc said he cannot help me if i stay at home. After 6 days, with lot many antibiotics and continuous treatment, I am feeling better and am discharged from Hosp. today itself. I just feel like ignoring everything, chess too. I had too much. Since I got admitted into hospital, i couldnt smoke. So, wife now says, its better to quit smoking, which i am doing. Sometimes listening to the better half gives much relief.

Wish you a speedy recovery Wayne. My prayers will be there for ya, ever.

Wayne Lowrance    (2011-05-30 18:23:03)
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Howdy Kam. Gosh I did not know about your illness. So pleased your feeling much better. Thank you so much for your prayer, helps me to know it. My future does not look promising Kam. The Doctor has told me my arthritic conition is advanced, only offering me drugs, which help some. I am for sure thru with chess Kam, I just cannot any longer do it. I could always just make engine moves, but I would NEVER be able to enjoy that.... I am proud of your play in the Jimmy Tournament, attaway to go Kam
Well b4n

Thibault de Vassal    (2011-05-31 03:06:20)
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Bad times :( Take care Kam... my best wishes to you both.

Sebastian Boehme    (2011-05-31 03:15:10)
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Two really great corr chess players and see how quickly life can take big burdens on you....this is sad to read and also from me all the best wishes that are possible to give.

Alvin Alcala    (2011-06-01 06:36:49)
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Wish you all the best Wayne. Don't worry we will be waiting just take your time.

Kamesh Nookala    (2011-06-01 14:08:38)
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@ Wayne - There is always a start point and a corresponding end point. You have done so much in your life. But, now, your life needs a bit care from your end. I am just 34 and your chess experience and game play are far bigger than my age. But, the end is inevitable. It is better to put an end for your games Wayne, which you did. What is important for me at this point of time is you and not your games. So, follow what doc says, take rest and I am pretty sure you will be strong enough again. But, then again, just WATCH chess, do not play it.. Else, it may drain your energy again. For whatever happened to me at WBCCC, I quit the tour Wayne. Just enjoying my life :)
Warm regards my good friend...

@ Thib - Yes, lot many changes. Had to quit smoking, though that was never a concern or a cause for my illness. I received only humiliation round after round at WBCCC. I couldn't take more and had to put an end to my corr. chess career for the time being. I am regrouping myself. And, certainly, FICGS is the place where I will come back to.

@ Sebi - Thanks friend. I am not a great corr. chess player. Just a player :p